YMonday, August 07, 2006
im going for psychiatric treatment. (if tts hw u spell it).
its like my whole life's in a total fucking mess la.
my mom suggested e professional help thing.
for e first time i feel like my parents care.
its gonna cost a bomb but they dun mind spending it.
i feel so helpless, i cried like fuck last night, and my mom was so, so, like, nice.
its been so long since she talked to me in that loving tone.
i knw its freaky, but it felt nice, it felt like, someone actually cared.
but nw im really confused, i really dunno whether i should go for e treatment or not.
my parents say im not mad, but i really dunno if tts true, cause their starting to treat me like a mad patient.
im like , really confused nw.
i really dunno wad to do. ='/
i feel so alone, im afraid my frens might think, im, DIFFERENT.
and they'll shun away..
maybe 'HE' is my only hope??
i thought love was only found in fairytales. told you a secret at