YThursday, September 14, 2006
okay, im at clown's place nw.
and frogg's sleeping like a pig. -.-
didnt go to sch today.
too stressed out la. fcuk it.
mom nearly quitted sch today.
mom wanted to bring me to sign e papers.
but den we had a long talk, and we decided to at least get an n level cert nxt yr.
sigh, its hard.
im jus so confused nw, if my mom hadnt talked to me this morning,
i think by nw, im out of sch alr.
so, i guess she really cares??
but why dun i feel anything?
i have counselling at 8 later.
should i go? i feel so lost.
i dun wanna talk abt it cause i dun knw wads going on with me.
all those smiles and laughter.
they're jus to cover up e pain in me.
but who knws? or rather, who cares.
i alr got a whole load off my mind by giving up on him COMPLETELY.
but there's smth else bothering me, deep dwn inside.
and i dun knw wads tt.
i still feel so numb and lost.
i dun think anyone can help me.
should i jus end it all here?
i thought love was only found in fairytales. told you a secret at