YFriday, September 22, 2006
sigh.
been so long since i blogged.
been feeling so stressed out and all.
i need a break man. this sucks.
i jus went to the psychiatrist today, and she diagnosed me with smth else besides depression.
i have soe, a... thing. some scientific term.
it means i cant control my anxiety, which is quite bad.
cause i might go mad any sec. im so scared.
im all alone.
i have noone, i dunno why.
i knw everyone is there for me, but i jus feel so alone all e time. ='/
its jus so hard.
im really trying my best to get on with life,
but i duno hw long ore i can hold on.
i really wanna die, it jus sucks so much.
i duni think ill ever recover, everyone says ill recover.
but i dun think so. sigh.
nw i wanna move to hme schooling.
we're still discussing, nt sure yet
but i really rather tt.
its like, i jus feel so much stress everywhere i go.
sigh sigh sigh.
its sooooooooooooooooooooooooo hard.
i jus wanna go.
pls let me go everyone.
all ur smiles, encouragement and support,
all these things are making e hold on, all e fun i have wth u guys.
its wads making me hangon for so many weeks,
but i really dunno hw long more i can take it.
pls let me go guys.
ts jus too much.
i thought love was only found in fairytales. told you a secret at