YMonday, June 11, 2007
it's a calm day today.
nothing much going on. watched my cartoon just now. 'sabrina'.
but i missed my 'totaly spies'. damn it. HAHA.
wtf, i think im addicted to cartoons la.
and spongebob's not on at 6 everyday anymore. only on sundays.
mann.
anyway, bought a spongebob plush ystrday. went to central with mom.
wanted to buy two tops but not my size or either dun have my size.
but its like quite dead thr la. mom says sooner or later it'll close down.
mom and me had a talk last night. talked abt my friends and my life and all.
it really sucks la. she keeps telling me now wad i have to do is focus on my schoolwork,
and maybe e reason why i dun have many close friends is because im too hyperactive.
and my friends unknowngly shun me.
and she said tt i can get along better with E and C cause my personality's more towards e eurasion side. wow, when she said tt i was totally shocked, but den it quite made sense.
i started to think and yea, i can nvr REALLY feel comfortable with like, urgh, i dunno how ta explain. but its true i guess, when i come to think of it now.
mom says my dressing too. but i dun think tts true cause a lot of ppl dress like me.
i just dun wanna be mistaken as a punk u knw. i have so many diff hobbies.
and everytime i let it out one by one, ppl just reacts like, shocked.
like, 'olivia likes flowers?', 'olivia picks flowers for her mom?' 'olivia's reading a book of poetry?'..
u knw, THAT kinda stuff.
i mean, i have DIFF sides of me u knw.
and i only knw one friend tt can actually understand me like that.
i dont think i knw who she is, but i have a good feeling bout our frenship.
i mean like, even our parents trust each other to takecaire of their daughter. like, =)
tts a nice feeling.
even though we dun like talk everyday or wad.
but at e end of e day, we are always thr for each other. even though most ppl may not see it or anything.
or maybe. like wad mom says, i will find my friend when u grow up or smth?
i dont knw..
i thought love was only found in fairytales. told you a secret at