YFriday, August 17, 2007
okay, im bck from tt crazy place!
got admitted to INSTITUTE OF MENTAL HEALTH.
i knw i knw, im mad. but nt as mad as e ppl thr okay!
day 1: went thr, no HANDPHONE, no MP3. -faints.
u think i can survive thr? cried myself to slp e first night. felt horrible enough n den i had to slp with strangers. so irritating. woke up at 630am. which we have to, EVERYDAY. -.-
bathe, breakfast outside, den we'll get LOCKED bck in our dormitary's agn.
aft tt 12pm lunch, den LOCKED bck in our dorm's agn. aft tt 3pm teabreak. den we have free time till evening. but its just an empty canteen. seriously ppl, inside thr, u totally can die.
e only activities we have is with our occupational therapist! anger management, all tt shit.
no activities at all okay!
den thr's a girl in e wheelchair who refuses to eat, bathe move.
she's so smelly she needs 5 nurses to bathe her. she's force fed through a tube n she also refuses to swallow her saliva.
patient no 2. frm girls hme, self mutilation. but she does it for attention, its obvious.
thr's nothing wrong with her actually. e nurses n docs told me too.
patient no 3. been thr for a month or so alr. self mutilates herself for real.
she always gets tied up cause she cant control her emotions, same prob as me.
but lucky i didnt have any angry attacks or else i would get tied up n sent to CRISIS unit too.
patient no 4. wears sunglasses ALL THE TIME. even in e NIGHT. she hates her eyes, gt other probs too. but dosen talk to anyone. spoilt brat too. mhmm.
patient no 5. came dwn with fever at 12 yrs old, blinded on one side, became retarded. sad.
he was tied up when he got here too, cause he had an attack.
patient no 6. david. hahah. funny. he's born retarded, dumb, autistic n mentally unstable. mom commited suicide, dad dosen want him, so poor sickly, old, dying grandma takes care of him. but he'll be in thr for life la. cause he's forever like tt. he runs arnd NAKED everyday, like when he's playing halfway he'll strip. he's 18 yrs old alr. nxt yr they'll move him to e adult side.
he keeps shouting e same noises cause he cant talk. den he bangs e wall and all.
rips off e wall and floor papers. sad la. this kind.
they have to separate him frm us cause he attacks. sigh, sad case.
patient no 7. joceline/ mei mei. she's a normal 18yr old poly student.
suddenly became like tt. always in a daze, sleep. she's very weird. but its sad, her parents have 3 kids, eldest one turned totally insane. when he was 27 , he moved out when he alr needed help. den nw he's mad. second bro ALMOST became mad, but they managed to save him in time. and now, the youngest sister becoming mental also.
sad right? see e parents like tt.
well, i realised during my stay tt im not e worst n thr's a lot of ppl worst den me.
it was a horrid experience to stay in a mental hospital.
but i wasnt in e severe one. the CRISIS units above us were e severe ones.
we always here alarms go off whr e nurses upstairs would press when they needed help.
den we'll hear screams, struggles. and everything.
the patient would knock e floor or smth, chairs smashing and everything.
its mad in thr. SCARY actuallly.
so yupp, im glad im out and i hope i recover.
mhmm. i miss dar and idk wad i should do abt him. sigh. ='/
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