YSaturday, September 15, 2007
slept at 5am last night.
was awakened by some fucking noise. urgh.
woke up arnd 2 plus.
made a calorie count journal online.
gonna start to work out n alls.
oh ya, u knw wad i found out?
he came to our sch ystrday. or can i say outside our sch.
gf said she walked in and den he called her n waved.
when i saw tt msg, my heart stopped beating.
i felt like i was falling , deeper n deeper.
i felt tt im nvr gonna get out. idk why im feeling like tt.
just like total fuck.
wtf is wrong with me.
lucky i didnt go to sch ystrday or else i SWEAR i would see him n faint or smth.
my hands felt so weak when i saw tt msg, my lips turned dry..
idk wads happening. idk.
i just know tt i hate him for wad he did. i hate him.
well, he's got a new girl now anyway, ROSABELLE her name.
hunh, ah lian.
so suitable for him.
well, i have no right to comment.
so i wish him luck.
i guess he's happier now, having flings with all kinds of girls.
good luck to him.
and good luck to me.
'i must pull through, but why does it seem so fucking hard? and i keep falling back to whr i came frm."
i guess ill nvr find this happiness..
i thought love was only found in fairytales. told you a secret at