YWednesday, September 19, 2007
went to stay at bel's hse last night.
sighh. was feeling like crap.
idk how but i ended up at e front of his doorstep.
he was sleeping so no one answered e door.
waited for abt an hour n a half.
den decided to leave a note.
went to town to meet jess, beelay, isaac, janet n bel.
chilled out for a bit. den went bck with bel.
talked abt our love stuff. sigh, i hate my life la seriously.its like damn pathetic can.
went over to kuku regina's place aft tt. kuku dorothy was thr.
played with zac n all.
den suddenly started to cry. idk why.
like, so overwhelming. i was listening to a song tt reminded him of me.
cause he introduced tt song to me. ='/
so hurried to the room cause e tears were coming dwn like mad.
den bel came in aft awhile. i just felt like crap.
i wanted to just hug her n cry.
but i couldnt, cause zac was thr. didnt wanna let him see me like tt.
he's only a 2 yr old btw.
went to the airport for dinner cause uncle anthony bought a new sports car.
AWESOME la.
its like totally fucking cool.
and zac was like, 'nice car' all the way. LOL. damn cute.
ate swensens. damn bloody full, but it was nice.
and now im so fat. see la, greedy fucking me.
cannot dun eat one knw.
went hme, puked it out.
com-ed awhile den called marisse.
so came over to bryan's place.
holly, chloe, marisse, bryan, leslie, zac, kenneth n johnathan.
mhmm. holly n chloe left first though.
chole has sch.
so now its like 6am.
and im still here at bryan's hse.
the guys are sleeping but im not.
supposed to wake kenneth n johnathan up to go hme.
apparently they cant get up. LOL. so here i am blogging.
talking,humming, singing to myself.
so pathetic right?
'you said u wun let me go, all the times uve promised me tt everything would work out in the end. YOU LIED.'
i thought love was only found in fairytales. told you a secret at