YSunday, September 09, 2007
wtf. im fucking crying now.
idk why the fuck do i always cry.
im sucha loser. i fucking hate myself.
imma fucking loser and i should fucking die.
ive got a fucking screwed up life tt i screwed.
and i have a fucking screwed up brain.
its like thr's smth wrong with me or smth.
it just totally sucks like fuck.
i fucking hate myself.
i should just die. im so useless.
no matter how fucking hard i try, it just gets worser n worser.
like im a jinx , or im born like tt or smth.
born a LOSER.
maybe my death would bring happinness to ppl arnd me.
but why? why everytime when im abt to do it, i hold bck?
like smth is telling me its not worth it?
and tt ill get punished by god by killing myself before my time is right?
why? is thr smth really wrong with my mind?
idk, idk what the fucking hell is wrong with me.
no one can fucking help me, i cant help no one.
no one wants to help me cause imma loser.
im a fucking loser.
I HATE FEELINGS. WHY CANT I HAVE NO FEELINGS. WHY CANT THEY JUST GO AWAY.
i thought love was only found in fairytales. told you a secret at