YSaturday, February 23, 2008
sitting here all alone,
with the pieces gone & the puzzle undone.
nt feeling any better.
everything is just getting worser.
skin isnt any better.
i just wanna isolate my hideous self.
away from the world.
so manipulative, pretentious & fake.
it's terrible what people can do to you. seriously.
i feel as if the world's coming to an end,
everyone's talking about it.
but no one knows when its coming.
i had a dream last week,
that the world was coming to an end.
i could hear him, i could.
i could feel him too.
i woke up with a jerk. it was so real.
but scary, i wasnt ready.
den i realised he's trying to tell me smth.
live your life to the fullest.
but i cant.
for a moment in like super happy,
den the next im dwn to the core of the earth.
if u get wad i mean. its fucked.
everything is fucked.
i have no support now ,everyone's busy with their own stuff.
i cant blame them.
ppl cant possibly just stop their lives for me.
right now, i just want time away.
sort out my feelings.
things arent very good at hme,
in a sense tt its me.
ah, idk.
i feel its starting all over agn.
he said, 'when do you wanna come back to me?'
i thought love was only found in fairytales. told you a secret at