YSunday, February 24, 2008
WHAT I WANT BEFORE MY BDAY IN JUNE 2008.
*Have better skin
*Have longer hair, well at least like my previous one
*Lose weight HEALTHILY
*Toned up body
*Be at least th top 5 in class
*Be comfortable with myself (bodywise)
now i knw who my friends are. i thought you were one of my best friends.
but nah, idk think so. its pretty obvious frm th way u treat me. and other small things.
i shant say any names, but yea. DONT BOTHER ASKING. cause thr's no way ill tell you.
why should u even bother? my prayers are never answered.
wads e point of talking to me through my dreams.
your nt helping, haven i been trying so hard? ive done my best, wads more to do?
im exhausted but nothing's getting better.
my skin is getting worser. i hate it.
i despise myself. i look so hideous-ly atrocious.
fuck. wad th fuck is wrong.wad am i doing wrong? can someone tell me?
fuck. im tired of bleeding all th time.
it even hurts when i bathe. cant i just have a nice shower ? a COMFORTABLE one at least.
not one tt makes me scream OUCH all th time.its just stupid. really.
idk, maybe one day ill just take a penknife and slice my skin off.i mean it.new yr at kiko's. me n abang. 
me & carol. vday. 
i thought love was only found in fairytales. told you a secret at